a good little clock.

time. time. time.
Time. Lately I have felt, more than ever, this crushing sense of time. I wake up in the morning and immediately feel pressure and stress, thinking about all the things I need to do just to get out the door in the morning, not to mention all the things I have to/need to/and dare I say want to, accomplish that day. I’ve turned into quite a good little clock-watcher – I find myself constantly looking at the clock, which drives me crazy and does nothing to alleviate the pressure I feel.

What time is it? How much time do I have? How much time is left?

I wonder what it would be like to get rid of all the clocks, and live the day according to my own pace.

Between taking care of Lily and Julian (who both need attention although in very different ways), working, taking care of the house, and shopping, I can barely squeeze in time to do the things I want to do for myself. And then it makes me feel selfish for even saying that!

I know I have too much to do, but I honestly don’t know what to cut out. I don’t think that I’m doing anything that isn’t necessary. But something isn’t right. When I’m in tears in the morning because of the stress, then all I can say is this is not working, and I need to either cut things out, or accept the fact that I want to do all this stuff and have a better attitude about it. I’ll let you know how that turns out!

but on the other hand
But somehow (and I’m not really sure how) I always do manage to find time for my creativity. Probably because if I didn’t I would be utterly miserable and crazy.

Here is a necklace I made to submit to Stampington’s new publication, Jewelry Affaire –

They are looking for elegant jewelry that is simple for a beginner to make. I have another necklace I am working on, and an idea for one more. Plus I have a few things made already that I am sending as well. I figure if I send a bunch of stuff, there’s got to be something they’ll like!

bad mommy
My sweet little daughter had her first visit to the dentist a few days ago – and she already has a cavity! I feel like I must be the worst mother in the world – how can my three-year old have a cavity already? We brush her teeth twice a day, although sometimes it can be rather a challenge to do it well. I just pray that when we go back to get it fixed, everything goes smoothly.

~toodles.